octubre 25, 2009

Stop!!

I still remember those crazy times

When I was little girl running around

Not caring about life

I wish we could go o back!

I gave all of me

I tried to do my best

Until I realized that

I was standing alone

[[I’ve been lying to myself

Allowing me to get lost

In an you and me that never existed

U never gave me a reason to believe it

So lets stop pretending so stop saying you love me

Cause those two words are too strong

for a guy like u!]]

I keep thinking about the night

That Our lips collide

It was like a whole world

Revolving around oh oh oh

You were supposed to be perfect

I thought we were meant to be

But life got me something better

I know I just need to wait and see

[[ ]]

tonight you left me on my knees

tears rolling down my chicks

and I wonder how do you feel

knowing that you killed me

but 2morrow its gonna be a new day

and what happened is gonna be left

I decided to follow my dreams

And thnk you 4 everything!

[[ ]]

Im not gona lie Im not over you

But with the time all these feelings

Will be left inside and little by little

They will turn into nothing more than good

Memories!

octubre 21, 2009

Life isn't always pink!

If I've learned something in my 15 years is that life is not perfect all the time and we don't get always what we want. I had difficult experiences that made grow up even if I didn't want to. I really don't like to talk about them because personally I like to leave the door closed to all that things that made me suffer, and made me think that my life was hanging on a cliff. Even though I'm not talking about them I do want you to learn something.
Many times we spend the day bitching about everything that's going on around. We have so much rancor that when something goes wrong we turn into blinds, yes blinds cause it don't aloud us to observe all those little things that can turn our day into something wonderful.
There is so much suffer in the world, but I think that all the bad things that happened to us form part of a "training" so we can be ready for something that is about to happen. Good or Bad. I could tell that we live suffering and there are few moments that really draw a true smile in our face. I don't mean that we are designated to live in pain, actually what I want to say is that life will be sad until you decide to make it better.
I t depends on you to be happy or not. The way you see the bad and good things is what determines your mood. Some problems seem to be labyrinths without exit, you don't know what to do so you start feeling desperate. But let me tell you that there is actually an exit to all of this. Just relax it doesn't matter how difficult your situation is, take a breath, meditate on your heart so that way things will be easier. When we are mad we let the good time pass by and not only that, sometimes the solution to our problems is in view and because of the anger we refuse to see it.
I know we are living in a difficult time but just remember that there's always going to be that ray of hope that God send to remind us that somewhere in this land still exist happiness and love. From now on when you get mad or stressed or sad remember that there's someone up there that gave us this world to enjoy. So start to see things from other perspectives, instead of worrying all the time about stuff try to enjoy every second you have with your loved ones. Don't waste the little rays of hope that God sends you everyday so you can be happy, oh and by the way the good thing about life is that each day comes to an end, an end that give us the opportunity to start all over. Maybe good, maybe bad but always with a new chance to be happy.

I wish the best!
With all my love.... Maff~*
xoxo God Bless

Sisters by blood... friends by choice!

I wanted to do something special for my big sisters so here it goes...
Two of my favorite people in the world are without a doubt my big sisters! They are my role models, I feel really proud of them!
They are way to older than me but we have the best of the relationships. Maybe we'll never go out together on fridays or have the same friends but something I know for certain is that they will always be there ready to help in case I need them.
My sisters have always been there to hold me through the rough times and give me advice every time I ask for it, we've also shared our achievements and happiness. But not everything has been sweet as honey, we fight a lot but it always end with a big hug and a sincere sorry. We don't spend so much time together but they are always there giving me love, smiles and their helping hands in case I fall. I share with them all my secrets. I f I need to they can be friends, sisters, accomplices or counselors. To be honest my life wouldn't be the same without them! Karen is 25 years old she is the "ham" of the sandwich, she is the one that always makes me laugh and smile. Haha she is pretty funny. Sonia is 27 years old the big one, my biggest role model.Now married so I don't get to see her a lot. Sonia is the one that gives me advice and maybe sometimes she scolds me but I wouldn't change anything of her.
They are hard working, honest and successful women and I couldn't be prouder!
I'm lucky cause God gave me the best sisters in the world!
Appreciate your family cause at the end of the road they are the ones that are going to be waiting for you!

Never stop smiling
With all my love.... Maff~*
xoxo God Bless

Music's in my hands!

Christmas 2007...
That was the best Christmas ever! I remember that morning I went running downstairs to open my presents, the first thing I saw was a black sheath with a big red ribbon resting at the end of the stairs... in that exact moment tears started rolling down my cheeks! That was it... the time I've been waiting for... finally my new guitar was here!
Then I started to think how I got so passionate about music and especially my guitar!
Months later I was watching T.V when suddenly a show about the pop star of the moment went on. He was talking about the time he wrote his new single. The only thing I can remember and definitely the most important one was ... "when I write the lyrics and play the chords on the guitar for a new song I can feel the music running through my fingers". I was amazed on the way he said that words with so much passion that I the first thing I did was call my cousin so he could teach me to play guitar.
At first it was so hard for me that you can't even imagine! but the time passed and in a blink of an eye that words that I heard months before were starting to make sense.
Every time I take my guitar I can feel that passion, that feelings that the music does have on me.
Now I have a lot of time playing guitar.
I still feel the emotion that playing my first chords provoked in me.
Every time I play it's like my whole soul dance to the rhythm of the music.
Music is what I have inside...it's what defines who I am. My guitar will be my eternal partner through happiness, sadness, and all the obstacles that life puts in front of me! So if you have something you really like go for it... it doesn't matter how hard it is or how dumb it sounds GO AHEAD AND TRY!
Never stop following your dreams cause at the end is that what give us the strength to wake up every morning, what makes us smile, have hope, faith and just the thought of achieving them makes us feel happy!
Always be strong and defend who you are, in what you believe and what you think cause that is the only way you will success!

Believe in yourself!
With all my love... Maff~*
xoxo God Bless

octubre 20, 2009

My best friend

I have no words to express my admiration towards her. She's just beautiful, strong, talented, and intelligent in resume AMAZING! She is my favorite person in the world, she's not an actress or a famous writer but sure she is an angel that God send me :D

She may not be perfect but for some strange reason she always know what to say or what to do at the exact time and place.

She is my best friend… I remember that day, I was in the typical phase of “I have nothing to wear” and she just out of nowhere pulled out the perfect outfit for the occasion and saved me.

Oh and that other time when I was crying like crazy cause a guy broke my heart! Yeah the only thing that made me feel better was her hugs and her wise words.

Let’s not forget all the times we’ve laughed together! And her perfect advises in all aspects of life.

She is the one that is always there for me giving me a helping hand in case I feel like tripping. Every time I look at her all I can see is a successful woman. But I know that behind the strong image there's a loving and caring person. She is my role model … the woman I feel proud of calling MOTHER. Unfortunately my mom has a “double life”, she needs to be the business woman and the loving mom and wife! I got to say that I don’t get too see her a lot she is always traveling and there are just a few times a week that we have to sit and talk. Even though we don’t see each other as much as we wish I know that she is always there for me and now everytime I call her or see her I try to enjoy the moment cause I really miss her. I thank God all the time for the beautiful woman he gave me as mom.

As teenagers we always fee like no one gets us but if something I’ve learned through my whole existence is that no one knows me better than my mom!

Trust your mom she knows what she’s doing and she do it for your own good.

I don’t want to sound like the typical speech about how much she love us, I just want you to appreciate her and what she does.

Believe me when she is gone… You are going to miss her! So just try to be as close as you can to her and to enjoy every hug, every moment, every word that you two share. Your mother is the only best friend that will give everything for you without a doubt, do all she can to make you happy and always be there buy your side without caring what you did! She is never going to betray you!

So any chance you get tell her how much you love her and how thankful you are for what she do cause as some people say “you don’t know if you are going to die tomorrow!”

Always follow your dreams

With all my love…. Maff

xoxo God Bless

octubre 19, 2009

L.O.V.E


I still remember myself 2 months ago.... sitting in my room while listening to romantic songs that remind me of him. That boy, where to start? basically I've been in love with him for about 3 years now. I can't explain how much I love him cause even though I'm young I can definitely say it was love. I would do anything for him and when I say anything I mean ANYTHING! maybe it was turning into an obsession but still it was crazy love... I never thought he could do this to me! why? why me? if I gave everything I could to make him happy? I changed myself so he could like me... I couldn't understand why he would betray me that way. The thing is that he told me he loved me and then days later he had a girlfriend. Months passed he broke up with the girl and a couple weeks ago he came to visit me, he kissed me he told me that he loved me and now he is probably texting "I miss you" "I love you" "I can't live without you" to my BEST FRIEND! yeah pretty intense huh?!?! well I'm not going to lie I cried and I cried A LOT! until one day while I was resting on my bed alone my mind started to think in this crazy situation. Oh boy that night I realized so many things that changed my life. It's not all his fault... it was me the one that believed him, that introduced them so basically I'm kinda guilty but hey he hurt me to and in a really bad way. But I don't hate him, I'm just trying to forget him!
The weeks passed and now here I am trying to express how I feel right now. My best friend just left, this afternoon she told me she felt something for him I thought I was going to break down but no, yea it feels pretty much like 1000 knifes stabbing my heart but I've definitely felt worse. It's hard, but you know what? after all that suffering and crying I realized it was not worth it! I don't want him to love me or to kiss me anymore, in fact I don't want see him ever again but there's one thing that I would appreciate. Even though in part was my fault a good apologize from his side will make me feel better. that's all I'm asking for. And for my best friend issue... well what can I do! we don't choose who we fall in love with! I t happened to me and maybe right now you are thinking she's a bitch well no I don't blame her she's like my sister and sooner or later she will she is not taking the right pad. :D Well you must be like ooo and then?? why would I like to know your "story"? well guys I just wanted you to know that love isn't perfect all the time actually it makes you feel all dizzy or sad but that doesn't mean it isn't beautiful. You need to learn to FORGIVE&FORGET in order to move on. So if you've been through a love deception cry all you need to and let it go! don't close yourself to love cause I'm sure that all of you are amazing so that means God have prepared something bigger and better for you. We just need to suffer a little so we can learn to see and love what and who really matters. So enjoy life and love and if it didn't work it means it wasn't for you!
I wish you the best of luck!
With all my love... Maff :D
xoxo God Bless